- Aug 25, 2014
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I know guys, this will sound crazy and you will eventually laugh at me after reading this. I know MalwareTips isn't the place to discuss paranormal stuff and things like that. But trust me guys. I am no longer at bleepingcomputer, geekstogo, ESET, Comodo, Bethesda, stackoverflow, programmersforum, wikia, youtube, facebook, twitter, Shadygamer, Shadywarez etc. forums or social networking websites where I can discuss non-computer related stuff. Do you guys like me to read further?
. I am almost completely secluded from the Internet. Thanks to my bitch boss. (*Ahem* Sorry for my wording. I am a little scared so...)
I know guys ; you'll not believe me. I know you're probably thinking I am intentionally writing Creepypasta-style. But no guys... I feel something more sinister is going on. Now guys. Listen. Let me tell you the whole thing. I am not joking. If you don't believe me, just don't reply to this thread. But moderators, please do not delete or close this thread. There's no more "off-topic" area than Space Bar, or trust me, I would have posted there instead. No ; this is not a "surprise this is a thread from NPE's Malware Carelessness thread" where at the end of this long thread, there will be "OMG I JUST JOKED CALM DOWN DID U FAIL FOR IT? LOL". I am serious.
Now look. Since the age of ten ; I do get "futuristic" dreams. No ; let's not think about "OMG EVERYTHING COMES TRUE". No ; not really. But...believe me or not, I am scared right now to even write this. Since the age of ten, I get "flashforwards" of things. I am serious.
At the age of ten, when I was in fourth grade, I got the 'flash forward' of a kit throwing bottle in an exact manner I dreamt. I don't remember what date it was. But it was the exact manner. I dreamt it. I knew I dreamt it. I was stunned, didn't know what to do. Didn't tell anybody about it.
At the age of thirty, I got a "flash forward" of sitting in Ford Figo. It was white. My hands were on the steering. It had the same, wiry, black, thin copper-like "grip" (Not sure what the thing that steering are covered with are called. Those things can be bought in most car shops).
In 10th January 1990, we bought a car. It was a white Ford Figo. I didn't realize crap. I put my hands on the steering wheel.
It had the aforementioned 'grip'. I realized it a second later. I was utterly terrified. Didn't think much of it.
At the age of 15 ; I got various flash forwards. Sometimes I sitting on the bench, staring at the almost beautiful, green, elegant park of my High School. I did realize what was happening. I didn't know what to do. I did tell my mother ; I was a Christian by heart from the age of 13. That didn't stop my lustful mind although, I did perform sins even after that, I couldn't do much ; and she, offensive to me as much as it was, brought me to the Indian temples of the Indian gods.
I didn't really pray to those temples. I just prayed to Jesus for His forgiveness. For I knew that I could trust the Holy Trinity over the thirty-three billion gods.
But. I was foolish, as every child is, at the age of 9-11. I acted as if lucifer sent me. I acted as if I was a "badass" that would 'create hell' for others. Perhaps I even mocked Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit. Fortunately, I really doubt I mocked Holy Spirit. I wasn't aware of His existence till a few more years. I acted as if lucifer was my 'father' (I shiver at the thought).
Then, my paranoia began. I grew social anxiety, OCD that I still struggle with. I started to lose my marks and things like that. It was until the eight grade (God bless that number) that I regained my lost reputation by winning several awards. I remember, how pre-eight grade I yelled and even used profanity against my parents. I sat on my chair and used computer to play games ; rather than studying. Basically, after third grade, things mostly went downhill. Until I became a Christian in the summer of eight grade (or the starting of ninth grade)
Now I shall tell you the truth. Those 'flash forwards' have never left me. Perhaps it's Jesus' way of testing my faith. I love Him, yet I still perform the things that I do not want to do and the things that I should not do.
Now. I had never heard of Emma Watson until twenty days ago. I was never really interested in Harry Potter or anything. It was scary stuff. I preferred my novels and games and music as way of entertainment. I, I do not know when, perhaps a year ago, perhaps six months ago, dreamt.
I dreamt of the same image Jake posted. I don't know if my 'dream' had the MalwareTips theme or something, but I surely know that I dreamt of the same photo of Emma Watson that is posted here by him today. Today, I saw and even replied to the thread. It didn't even struck me. It just struck me just a few minutes ago. I remembered how everything of my "short dreams" came true...It's #####ing horrible.
No no. I never saw this image or anything except the dream. i am not fearing anything or so. I can give more examples of me having 'flash forwards' of things. For example, I got a 'flash forward' of me playing the Elder Scrolls V : Skyrim. I wielded fire in one hand and an enchanted Daedric dagger, with me having the escape screen on.
I wasn't even aware of the Elder Scrolls series. It was 2009. Two years before Skyrim was released...
I played Skyrim in 2013. It was...the same scene. Didn't realize until about two hours later.
What is going on? Has lucifer taken a claim on my soul? Why is God letting this happening? Isn't He the Head of Authority? Anybody help me? Calfornia doesn't have decent priests, or I would have gone to those holy men long ago.
. I am almost completely secluded from the Internet. Thanks to my bitch boss. (*Ahem* Sorry for my wording. I am a little scared so...)
I know guys ; you'll not believe me. I know you're probably thinking I am intentionally writing Creepypasta-style. But no guys... I feel something more sinister is going on. Now guys. Listen. Let me tell you the whole thing. I am not joking. If you don't believe me, just don't reply to this thread. But moderators, please do not delete or close this thread. There's no more "off-topic" area than Space Bar, or trust me, I would have posted there instead. No ; this is not a "surprise this is a thread from NPE's Malware Carelessness thread" where at the end of this long thread, there will be "OMG I JUST JOKED CALM DOWN DID U FAIL FOR IT? LOL". I am serious.
Now look. Since the age of ten ; I do get "futuristic" dreams. No ; let's not think about "OMG EVERYTHING COMES TRUE". No ; not really. But...believe me or not, I am scared right now to even write this. Since the age of ten, I get "flashforwards" of things. I am serious.
At the age of ten, when I was in fourth grade, I got the 'flash forward' of a kit throwing bottle in an exact manner I dreamt. I don't remember what date it was. But it was the exact manner. I dreamt it. I knew I dreamt it. I was stunned, didn't know what to do. Didn't tell anybody about it.
At the age of thirty, I got a "flash forward" of sitting in Ford Figo. It was white. My hands were on the steering. It had the same, wiry, black, thin copper-like "grip" (Not sure what the thing that steering are covered with are called. Those things can be bought in most car shops).
In 10th January 1990, we bought a car. It was a white Ford Figo. I didn't realize crap. I put my hands on the steering wheel.
It had the aforementioned 'grip'. I realized it a second later. I was utterly terrified. Didn't think much of it.
At the age of 15 ; I got various flash forwards. Sometimes I sitting on the bench, staring at the almost beautiful, green, elegant park of my High School. I did realize what was happening. I didn't know what to do. I did tell my mother ; I was a Christian by heart from the age of 13. That didn't stop my lustful mind although, I did perform sins even after that, I couldn't do much ; and she, offensive to me as much as it was, brought me to the Indian temples of the Indian gods.
I didn't really pray to those temples. I just prayed to Jesus for His forgiveness. For I knew that I could trust the Holy Trinity over the thirty-three billion gods.
But. I was foolish, as every child is, at the age of 9-11. I acted as if lucifer sent me. I acted as if I was a "badass" that would 'create hell' for others. Perhaps I even mocked Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit. Fortunately, I really doubt I mocked Holy Spirit. I wasn't aware of His existence till a few more years. I acted as if lucifer was my 'father' (I shiver at the thought).
Then, my paranoia began. I grew social anxiety, OCD that I still struggle with. I started to lose my marks and things like that. It was until the eight grade (God bless that number) that I regained my lost reputation by winning several awards. I remember, how pre-eight grade I yelled and even used profanity against my parents. I sat on my chair and used computer to play games ; rather than studying. Basically, after third grade, things mostly went downhill. Until I became a Christian in the summer of eight grade (or the starting of ninth grade)
Now I shall tell you the truth. Those 'flash forwards' have never left me. Perhaps it's Jesus' way of testing my faith. I love Him, yet I still perform the things that I do not want to do and the things that I should not do.
Now. I had never heard of Emma Watson until twenty days ago. I was never really interested in Harry Potter or anything. It was scary stuff. I preferred my novels and games and music as way of entertainment. I, I do not know when, perhaps a year ago, perhaps six months ago, dreamt.
I dreamt of the same image Jake posted. I don't know if my 'dream' had the MalwareTips theme or something, but I surely know that I dreamt of the same photo of Emma Watson that is posted here by him today. Today, I saw and even replied to the thread. It didn't even struck me. It just struck me just a few minutes ago. I remembered how everything of my "short dreams" came true...It's #####ing horrible.
No no. I never saw this image or anything except the dream. i am not fearing anything or so. I can give more examples of me having 'flash forwards' of things. For example, I got a 'flash forward' of me playing the Elder Scrolls V : Skyrim. I wielded fire in one hand and an enchanted Daedric dagger, with me having the escape screen on.
I wasn't even aware of the Elder Scrolls series. It was 2009. Two years before Skyrim was released...
I played Skyrim in 2013. It was...the same scene. Didn't realize until about two hours later.
What is going on? Has lucifer taken a claim on my soul? Why is God letting this happening? Isn't He the Head of Authority? Anybody help me? Calfornia doesn't have decent priests, or I would have gone to those holy men long ago.
